Crazy, I Am(:

Crazy I am
Sane I am not

Remember my name
I will soon be forgot.

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well anyway, update!(: I don't miss Amatorem, I don't really talk to Eadem anymore, because he hasn't stayed true to his name, and i'm completely in love with Magistro Pupa, which was inevitable, him being the only person that's refused to let go(:

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Eadem.. I knew it, see? I knew you weren't really like me. And I knew your'e "love" couldn't be real. And now you are just like everyone else, really. Leaving me jealous and confused. I'm used to it, but...what now?
Doesn't matter, I guess.. There isn't actually a "what now?" for us, haha... There's just an "Okay, ou be happy and i'll carry on with my falling apart." That's okay. I'm totally used to it.

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Eadem told me to blog, so i'm blogging. Uhmm....I moved to Hurst!! And I forgot my little sister's birthday party was today. That's not good. And iv'e had to write 3 papers in 3 different classes about Libya and my opinion on it so far. I still miss Amatorem, and I finally found a way to see him. But i'll have to walk ten miles a night. Not fun. But worth it. And I have youtube on and the radio on in the living room so i'm never without music, no matter where I go. I'm awesome, yeah? Yeah. Oh and my mom left an hour ago to pick up Magistro Pupa. He's still at his house. Wonder where my mom is... Anywayz, thats my blog. Laterz (:

For my best Friend...Magistro Pupa....

I don't know if I was meant to meet you
I don't know if we were meant to be

I can't explain how much I miss you
But I can't get past the reasons I leave..

You held me close, you hugged me tight
You were always my best friend,
even when love was unforseeable..out of sight

But then I made a mistake
I whispered in your ear
I chained you to my soul, held you oh so dear..

I had just lost my everything
The splash  of white paint on this wall of black
And you were there for me, you said you loved me more than ever
And right then and there, screwed up was our 'best friends forever"...

No, I didn't lie in my moment of weakness
I love you, I love you, you are my other half
I love you, I love you, but then rush to our epitaph..

And now I'm moving, so far away
I want you to forget me a little more, each and every day.

But I didn't lie, Bestest Friend.
I love you- more than ever.
I didn't lie, Bestest Friend.
But it's what I do- break and sever.

Me Bein' A Poet-ess xP

You gave me thoughts I can't contain
I held on too long
now all I am is face and name.

I'm an empty shell, so hallow.
My soul has evaporated, I am shallow.
Like the muddy puddle of a lake under the park bridge
I wonder how long it would take to die if I jumped in..

No, don't you dare say you need me now.
Don't you dare prove it, you said you didn't know how.
Don't pick up that knife, babe, I'm warning you.
If you commit the final act of passion, WE'RE THROUGH.

We've been through this again and again,
even though your patience vanished back then.
But I still play out the scene in my head,
always excluding the part where I saw your body-
Limp
Lifeless
Dead.

My Celebrity Loverrr x)

Rob Thomas <3

Poems and Rhymes haha :)

Baby, you're amazing
I know you'll never leave my side.
You called me amazing
And now i'll never leave you're sight :) <3

Love is truly a drug
Legal because it's made the government also corrupt.
Oh God, i'm so high, lifted from the ground
I look down below, and the loveless look fucked. xD :) <3

"K, alright, love ya baby, sweet dreams and all that, 'night :)"
Goodnight, my love, same to you
Don't let the bed bugs bite, hope you dream of me tonight :)"*

* That really was our goodnight tonight, the only goodnight that brings, even in dark, true light <3

Forever, Always, Today <3